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Name: Marley
Birthday: 10/1/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Singing, chocolate, romance and comic movies, theater, really good tenors
Expertise: iunno, u tell me
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Nonprofit
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AIM:  Two3rdsASoul
Member Since:
7/20/2004
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| I kno, it took me a while, but i'm finally doing it. (though i'm sure my academic life would have preferred a different time...) yea i should be writing my rough draft for english class right now....but i think i'll just blow it off till right before class tomorrow....it is a rough draft after all and it has to be crap so that the professor will be like "wow, Marley, you've improved so much! what a talented writer you've become!" see if is was amazing on the first try then he'd be like "wow this is good, i can't wait to see how much better she does and if she doesn't do any better then we're gonna give her a B instead of an A" so yea...that's why i'm not writing it now....that annnnnnnnnnd.....
I HAD A TRUELY AMAZING WEEKEND!!!!!
for those of you who don't kno, i went on the March for Life in Washington DC this weekend with creed (pix are on facebook!). This was a big deal for me and a learned a lot that i didn't know before. lets just say if i had any doubts about being prolife then, they've been hurled to the other side of the universe. i don't want to be too preachy but now that i'm informed, i can't just sit by and watch it happen thinking "well they believe what they believe and even though i don't agree with it, it's wrong for me to tell them what is right" cuz frankly, that's a stupid thing to think. If you know the truth, share it. don't force it down people's throats but share it. plant the seed. lots of people will still not listen to you but people have to hear the truth. Just because america votes for it to be legal does not change the fact that it is just wrong. one of the really shocking things i learned this weekend was that only about 3% of abortions are because of incest or rape, 2% are because the babies health would not let it be able to live a "happy" life, and about 2% were because of the mother's health. and by mother's health, this is including psychological, economical, and physical not limited to life threatening. i'm sorry but when i heard that i got sick. over 90% of abortions are done because they are inconvenient and as a fall back plan for when contraception fails. I'm sorry, but when i heard that i got sick. grant it, i know these stats might be a little biased, but if they're anywhere close to that...that's just horrible.grant it, that doesn't make abortions under those other circumstances ok, but there are a lot of people out there who are like "i'm prolife....except" so that was for them. there is just so much wrong with abortion it's not even funny. i could be here for a while if i listed every reason why abortion is evil. yes i said evil. speaking of which, i hope a lot of you read this because this part is important: THE PILL IS ABORTION. no, this is not an overstatement. i guarantee that if someone is on the pill and they are sexually active whether in marriage or not, at least one baby will be concieved and killed because it can't latch on to the uterine wall and instead be flushed out into the toilet. the second of conception, that "bunch of tissue" as some people like to call it, has all the dna of a real person. all it needs to survive is nourishment and time....just like a two month old. and God had this silly little notion of putting one of the most fragile and holy of all beings in what He made to be the safest place on earth: the mother's womb. wasn't God silly? thinking that a mother would never try to kill something so innocent inside herself. gah, the whole issue just gets me really mad. i mean HELLO!!!! YOU'RE KILLING SOMEONE!!! SINCE WHEN HAS IT BEEN OK TO KILL AN INNOCENT??? i though most people frowned upon that. oops my mistake. another thing i found out on NCYC really blew me away and made me actually cry. a VAST (i don't remember the exact statistics) majority of americans would rather fight for animal rights than the rights of an unborn baby. that's disgusting. i can't really write more about that..... in fact i think i'm done with this topic, i shouldn't get so worked up this late at night. but actually one final thing. yes, a lot of unplanned pregnancies will stop a mother from going through college, they may make her parents disown her, she may have to go on food stamps to keep the baby and work in a restaurant. but ABORTION IS NOT THE ONLY SOLUTION TO THOSE PROBLEMS. ever thought of adoption? if you put the baby up for adoption, you will most likely get all you medical bills paid for. they'll even take care of prenatal care. there are over 2 million couples out there who are on a 5-10 year waiting list to adopt a child to love and cringe when they think about how many babies that have been killed that could have been theirs. yes, that is still 9 months out of a woman's life, but what's 9 months to a lifetime? it basically comes down to, (most of the time) you made the mistake of having sex and/or live under the myth that children are a burden rather than a blessing and you need to face the consequences. yes, everyone makes mistakes...but that doesn't mean the consequences get to go away. otherwise they wouldn't be mistakes.
THIS IS THE PART WHERE I STOP BEING AS PREACHY FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DIDN'T WANT TO READ ALL OF THAT
now i would just like to say that i am truly blessed. i mean utterly blessed. Creed is one of the major, if not THE major reason i know i made the right choice to go to BG. These people are just amazing and because of them i've grown more in my faith this past school year then i have in my whole life. For example, before Creed and specifically this trip, i say praying the rosery as a boring way to pray and a waste of time. But praying it w/ these people is....well amazing! i looked forward to every one of the five or so times we prayed the rosery on the rides to and from washington alone! on the march itself we prayed a rosery and two Divine Mercy Chaplets (remember jr high youth group??????) i was wonderful. and though all of creed has very different personalities, they're all in love with God and it shows.
On the trip, we met someone from australia named tom who owns an orphanage in China. he had such a sad but inspirational story. it turns out that abortions in china are as routine as dentist visits because they can only have one child. if their first child is somewhat physically handicapped or a girl, they can abandon it in a dumpster or if they already have the perfect boy they want, they can have it aborted. Tom's orphanage is dedicated to taking these abandoned babies and trying their hardest to hug them and kiss them as much as possible.
It's people like creed and tom that make me happy, that give me hope. Love is the main message i'm trying to send here. i know i sounded like i was getting angry and aggressive before, but...to quote my high school director ms. mascari, "I'M NOT MAD, I'M PASSIONATE!" but in a sense i am mad, not so much at the people, but for the sheer fact that it's happening. i apologies for offending anyone but i'm not sorry for what i said.
It's a shame that today, we can't vote for anyone in power that is in favor of all life. if we vote democrat, we vote to not seeing an end to abortion for quite some time if not forever. if we vote republican, we vote for a continuance of the death penalty and possibly more war than we're willing to deal with (insert every liberal's and a couple of conservative's and moderates' "duh!") we need a Catholic party!!!! ok, so maybe that wouldn't work because God knows that America would rather die than have God, much less a Catholic God, have anything to do with people's lives. but think about it. a real practicing Catholic, not a "but-Catholic", would be against abortion, the death penalty, euthanasia, and would try it's hardest to end or clean up the middle east mess as peacefully as possible. *sigh* like someone like that would EVER come to power.....other than Jesus of course.....but we don't know when that's coming
ok, i think this update is long enough. sorry to take 15 or so min out of your day, but i hope i planted at least a few seeds. i knew there's very few of you out there, but if you understand this and believe what i'm saying, please pray for an end to the culture of death. please.
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| A STICK!!!!  hahahahahaha!
Well, now i just feel silly. (no, not because of the joke....hehe i found it in the BGNews )
I guess NOW's (Nights of Worship)...(haha i just had a Rachel Ray moment) will do that for you. I don't know what it is, but NOW's just make everything....not really makes sence...but still makes sence? or ...ok it takes the pressure off of you to make it make sence. yea that's it. It makes it so easy to just throw everything up to God and let Him take care of it. I know that kinda sounds like i'm giving up or just being lazy, but really, when you're too stressed out to function and think rationaly, just throw it up there. God's not doing anything important..well...He is...but He can still do stupid little stuff too. Meditaion is really good too. like really good. especially when you're singing. There is nothing more freeing then just shouting at the top of your lungs in beautiful music and prayer. I love it. I really do. I just hope it's not becoming a drug....uh oh, i'm going into my "Live the Fourth" Kairos talk.....quick people who haven't been on it STOP READING!!!!! but anyway, yea, i really hope it's not becoming a drug. or just St. Tom's in general. I just click so well there. Maybe not perfectly with all the groups, i do still have yet to find my nitch, but just being there. St. Max is just too big affect in the way St. Tom's does. I mean, at St. Max, i'll zone out and be like "oh crap, i'm supposta be paying attention." but at St. Tom's i want to pay attention. I want to actually meditate on the Mass and experience it the way it's actually supposta be experienced. When i go home to St. Max, i feel the loss. I feel no need to go to daily Mass, and if i do, i want it at St. Tom's. I don't know what i'm going to do once the summer comes. See, this is why i say drugs are bad, bad bad bad bad BAD! and Chruch and worshiping should not be that way. they should not be a way to achieve a high. worshipping should not be about how it makes YOU feel. it's about giving thanks to God. heh, this came up in the vision team meeting today. we were trying to see how we could reach people throughout campus who have fallen away from church or switched chruches because this other one was more fun. wow, that really makes me sad. you really can't make people worship for God anymore, can you? We live in a society of "I" to go back to my Native American lit class. It's just like Richard's metaphore, you have to give the kid a dollar to play chess with you untill they just want to play the game for the sake of the game. Unfortunately, most people today are too obesessed with the dollar and in what form it's coming in. and i'm not just talking about those people who need a rock concert for a church service. i'm also talking about traditionalists. It doesn't matter what form it's in. If you're worshipping God for God's sake, it shouldn't matter if you're singing praise and woship music or praying a rosary. If it is in the glory of God, then it is perfect. It is not based on how it makes you feel.
ok, now that i identified and explained the problem....i have to work on that myself....
sorry, i really didn't mean for this to be a big spiritual rant. i hope it helped someone out there though. or maybe just writing it will help me. i really ment for this to inform you readers out there that the last rant is not resolved, but it is being worked out by God and i've been givien a shot of patience that will hopefully last me as long as i need it to....but then again, it's never been known to work very well on me..... | | |
| ...wow, is it possible to be confused out of your mind yet completely know whats going on? How about unbelieveably stressed out yet at peace? Or trusting in God so much you'd bet your life on it, yet unbelieveably impatient for His Will to come? How can i love something and hate it at the same time? This is how i feel right now...
I feel like i'm back in my sophmore year. The feelings are the same, really confusing and powerful, yet i think i'm looking at them in a much more mature light. It really doesn't help that the same parties are involved and that that relationship has matured a lot. That both people have grown so much and though they grew apart for a while, they seemed to come back together.
Well now what do I do? Just let it hang there and wait to see what happens when i'm dying to cry out? Or do i risk it all? Do i do the one thing i swore i wasn't going to do until i knew it was right, that i couldn't be wrong, that there was no risk at all. writing this out now makes my heart think "well duh! go for it! it's not love if there is no risk" but, of course, the ever conflicting brain is...scared....or maybe it's the other way around. i don't know. this is what i mean by the top part. and if i do put myself out there, is this it? am i ready for this to be it? and if it's not, how will i feel? relived that i still have time, though i've never wanted more time, or heartbroken because i gave my heart to someone other than my husband. I know he's coming. I know it.
ha, and now i'm thinking, this is nothing. i should wait and be patient. God wants me to work on the virture of patientce because He knows i need it.
even if i choose to do something about it. i'm in bowling green with no car. it will just be out there with no follow through at all.
maybe this will be enough. maybe somehow this entry will start something on it's own and all i have to do is wait for it to happen to me...or is that the easy way out.....i really don't like this, but i love it at the same time... | | |
| soooooooooooo it's the begining of a new year and i have yet to write a thought provoking reflection of the current turning of the years. Now, it really has nothing to do with the new year, but i did have some ponderings. Actually, lots of things have been provoking thoughts, but i forgot most of them. i really need to start carrying a tape recorder or something....or a brain recorder!!!! yay inner diologue!!!!!
this break i've been baby-sitting my highschool youth minister's kids a lot. they started to make me think....KIDS ARE AMAZING!!!! i mean seriously. what other being in the world can occupy themselves all day long without touching the TV (well, some kids) and do this everyday all year long. i mean, just thinking about how creative they have to be in their games is amazing! they can make an adventure out of anything! i only have small recolections of what it was like to be a kid, but i remember it going by really slowly but almost never being bored. Now the years go by so quickly and they're only going to go faster. and what's really scary is that i find myself wasting the day away watching TV shows i don't really like just to find something to do.....i miss being a kid.
i was also watching How I Met Your Mother the other day and the girl who's getting married was complaining because all of her couple friends are doing "adult" things like wine parties and talking about their families and settling down while she spent her weekends getting trashed at clubs. she said she was acting like she was still in college when she should be beyond that.....well....i have the reverse problem. i'm in college and i have no desire to party. none. i love hanging out with friends and getting goofy, but i've never had the need to go to wild parties every weekend. in fact, i'd rather stay in my dorm and watch a movie in my pj's. is this weird? i mean i feel like the chick in the show, like i'm in the wrong part of my life. but i guess it's not a bad thing that i want to settle down now. though i gotta say, it's really scary thinking that my parents were engaged by my age...but if anyone happens to know who my husband is, i would appreciate being introduced because frankly, i'm tired of searching and waiting. what can i say, i'm impatient. i'm tired of being married to a man i don't know.
tonight was the TX fundraiser with Jessica Hendy (TX alum baby!) she's had a lot of roles on and off broadway so she's pretty cool. her show was very very very very good. she has a truely amazing voice. i might go see it again tomorrow night....or tonight...w/e. it's only 10$ and it really is awesome. i loved that she opend the show with a new redition of "Just Around the River Bend". yay disney. "What i love most about rivers is you can't step in the same river twice. The water's always changing, always flowing." i definately corresponded this with....duh, TX. you don't really notice it when ur in it, but as an alum, everytime you step back in, it's different. there's new people you don't know and new inside jokes that ur left outside of. it's really scary. It must have been great for her to come back and have schmoo and motzie still there. i hope i come back and my good friends are still there too. Then another song said "it's like i never said goodbye" or something like that. and even though TX is changing without me, i can still come back and it's like i never left. i love my boys! i love my girls too. TX is just amazing in general. the last two songs were sung w/ the current TX group. i couldn't help sobbing with pride at my babies. i'm so proud of them.
well, i don't know how to close....
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| sooooo yes i should be studying for my geologic history of man exam tomorrow....but i don't want to and i pretty much know the material anyway and i can miss like 20+ questions and get an A in the class so i'm not too worried.
i must say my weekend was pretty dern awesome. it was like a really cool crescendo (i'm pretty sure that's how u spell it  ) so it started off w/ Masque on Friday, that was pretty entertaining. nothing better than 80's music and singing "a whole knew world" let me tell you! Then on Sat. i was just gonna veg for the day after a meeting for the film festival (oh for those of you who don't know, i'm going to be in a film festival! my position in the "Omelet Fairy") but then i got a call from missy and creed was going ice skating and that was a blast and a half. TRAINS ARE FUN!!!! specially for keshia in the front! then after that we went over to ryan's house and attempted to play a game then we told personal ghost stories then talked about cool deep Catholic stuff. good bonding time. good bonding time. then sunday i went to mass and was the cantor and that's always fun. then i went to brunch w/ JP and saw Mark Swinerton there (they had snowmen pretzels!) then i went home and took a nap. after that i had practice for the ballroom mass and then shortly following...had ballroom mass. omg it was sooooooo much fun! go kelly and picking great songs and making us sing the refrain to "angel's we have heard on high" a bazillion times in a row and letting us sing emmanuel!!!!!!! very good times very good times...ooo and i almost got my harmony to the psalm!!! it at least didn't sound terrible!!!! yay!!!!!!
then i went home and discovered that my beloved fish died. this is right, Gustav died this sunday. he had a burial at sea and is now sleeping with the.....fishes.....
then i studied and caught up on my work for civilizations (keeping me up till 4:30 and then not being able to stay asleep because the African chant kept getting stuck in my head!) so yes, marley is a very tired girl. she took a nap today and will be foregoing studying in favor of sleeping.
ok and now i'm going to get a little serious and stuff here so watch out.
let me just say that i'm obsessed with the third verse to "How Beautiful" absolutely obsessed. It's just a really good interpretation of what Advent is about. It's about Christ, the bride groom, becoming one with the bride, or the Church. and it talks about just gazing at what is to come and showing the joy that we should all be experiencing. I know that Christmas is a highly commercial and that Jesus prob wasn't even born on Dec. 25th, but it's a celebration of light coming to the world! it's about the reconciliation between a husband and his wife! It also shows how a human love between a man and wife should be. It's what i look forward to and what i look forward to someday. How amazing is that? And i just want to thank Creed and St. Tom's. I've never looked forward to Christmas and wanted to actually use Advent for what it is for before i came to college. You guys are the major reason why I know I made the right choice to come to BG.
here's the verse and also "Breath of Heaven" it's my favorite Christmas song and i hope you all have a very merry christmas.
How Beautiful the radiant bride
Who waits for her Groom with His light in her eyes
How Beautiful when humble hearts give
The fruit of pure love so that others may live
How beautiful, how beautiful, how beautiful is the body of Christ
I have traveled many moonless nights,
Cold and weary with a babe inside,
And i wonder what i've done.
Holy father you have come,
And chosen me now to carry your son.
I am waiting in a silent prayer.
I am frightened by the load i bear.
In a world as cold as stone,
Must i walk this path alone?
Be with me now.
Be with me now.
Breath of heaven,
Hold me together,
Be forever near me,
Breath of heaven.
Breath of heaven,
Lighten my darkness,
Pour over me your holiness,
For you are holy.
Breath of heaven.
Do you wonder as you watch my face,
If a wiser one should have had my place,
But i offer all i am
For the mercy of your plan.
Help me be strong.
Help me be.
Help me.
Breath of heaven,
Hold me together,
Be forever near me,
Breath of heaven.
Breath of heaven,
Lighten my darkness,
Pour over me your holiness,
For you are holy.
Breath of heaven,
Hold me together,
Be forever near me,
Breath of heaven.
Breath of heaven,
Lighten my darkness,
Pour over me your holiness,
For you are holy.
Breath of heaven.
Breath of heaven.
Breath of heaven.
One final note. It seems that a lot of people in Creed and friends of Creed are experiencing either losses in their family recently or have family members in the hospital. For those of you who pray, please keep them in your prayers.
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